Comforters and Companions

When my wife Amanda is away from our home (even if it’s for 5 minutes) – everyone goes completely wild.  It’s almost like she takes the well-mannered and calm parts of our brains and most of our sensibilities with her because while she is away the house gets turned upside down, and all the children (I include myself with the children) start acting like cavemen and/or wild animals.  I am convinced that there is some type of chemical reaction that occurs in each of us when the mother of our home is absent.  In fact, I know this is true, because the minute she walks in the door, everything is back to normal.  The house might still be a mess (it’s hard for that to rectify itself), but all of us feel the difference when Amanda is home.

There is a comforting power (yes, it is a power) that my wife has, that we cannot live without – at least not very long.  If we were left to our own devices (without her loving influence), we would quickly slip into ‘a state of nature…. in the gall of bitterness…being without [mom] in our world, and therefore we would be in a state contrary to the nature of happiness’1 This is not an over-dramatization – we would literally destroy ourselves due to lack of Amanda because we would be in a ‘state contrary to the nature of happiness’.

For us to be ‘in a state consistent to the nature of happiness’ my children need a mother and I need a wife.  By myself, I just can’t do it.  I need a best friend who is also my helpmeet.  I need someone who is every sense of the word superior to me, greater than me, better than me, smarter than me, more loving than me, more patient than me, more caring than me, more thoughtful than me, more giving than me, more understanding than me, more patient than me, and much more naturally spiritual than me who can lift me up to be more than I currently am.  I need someone who can comfort me even when she wants to kick me.  I need someone who can give me soft advice and hard advice (and someone who knows the difference).  I need someone who can pick me up when I am down, and I need someone who is strong enough to carry the weight of being a righteous mother.  I need someone who knows and understands that a righteous mother with a strong influence over her family makes Satan tremble.  I need her to make me whole.   I need someone who has my back even when, or rather especially when, I deserve it the least.  I need someone who will always be there.  I need Amanda.

My wife is my favorite person in the whole world.  She makes me happy.  She makes me laugh.  I just like to be around her.   Even if we aren’t actively communicating – I just like to be close to her.  When we read, I like to be in the same room as her – just because.  When she cooks dinner – I like to just stand in the kitchen and watch (sometimes I help) because I just like to be near her.  I like the way she makes me feel.  She makes me feel wanted and important and special and she makes me feel worth.  In short – she makes me feel love.  She has a powerful effect on me that no other human has because of how I feel around her and because of how I feel for her.

Even when we aren’t in the same room – we are still together.  We are united.  We are a true companionship.  My thoughts can be her thoughts and our goals are the same.  Our hopes, dreams, intents, and happiness can all be shared – completely.  She is a true companion, and she is constant (unrelenting awesomeness and never-ending source of power and love) and she brings me comfort.   Her presence and power is the opposite of the chaos that we feel when she is away.  The peace and calm knowledge that we have when ‘mom is home’ cannot be replaced.

There is another power that brings the same comforting and calming affect and we have been told that we have access to it.  This is good news for you women because us men just cannot compare with your awesomeness – and this power is so good at it, they actually just named him ‘The Comforter’.  This comforting power has a similar affect on us – bringing peace, assurance, patience, and love while it is with us and as expected when this comforter leaves, we immediately turn into wild dogs and crazy people with no sensibility and/or reason.  We might be able to fend for ourselves for a few minutes – but eventually we will slip (not so gracefully) into ‘a state of nature…. in the gall of bitterness…being without God in the world, and therefore we would be in a state contrary to the nature of happiness’1

For us to be ‘in this state consistent to the nature of happiness’ we need help.  We need someone who is bigger, better, stronger, wiser, kinder, more patient, more loving, more understanding, more eager, and more awesome as our companion.  We need a best friend who is also our jumpstart.  We need someone who is every sense of the word superior to us, (in this case – perfect) who can lift us up to be more than we currently are.  We need someone who can comfort us even when he wants to kick us.  We need someone who can give us soft advice and hard advice depending on the situation we’re in.  We need someone who can pick us up when we are down, encourage us to continue onward and upward2 and we need someone who is strong enough to carry the weight of being a comforter to the whole entire world. We need someone who knows and understands that we have power within us that we haven’t even tapped into yet.  We need his half (let’s be honest – his half is essentially a whole) to make us as whole as we can be.   We need someone who has our back even when, or rather especially when, we deserve it the least.  We need someone who will always be there.  We need the comfort of the Holy Ghost.

The spirit (and its comforting power) is my favorite thing in the whole world.  It makes me happy.  It makes me cry like a baby and I love it.  I just like to feel it.   Even if we aren’t actively communicating – I just like to be close to it.  When I read, I like it to be with me – just because.  When I ride my bike (or insert any daily activity here) – I like to pay attention because he will help me and lead me and guide me.  I like the way it makes me feel.  He makes me feel wanted and important and special and he makes me feel worth.  In short – he makes me feel love.  The spirit has a powerful effect on me that no other force can has because of how I feel because of it.

Even when we aren’t in the same room – we can still be together.  We are united.  We have the promise of a true companionship.  My thoughts can be his thoughts and our goals should be the same.  Our hopes, dreams, intents, and happiness can all be shared – completely.  He is a true companion, and He is constant (unrelenting awesomeness and never-ending source of power and love) and he brings us comfort.   His presence and power is the opposite of the chaos that we feel when he is away.  The peace and calm knowledge that we have when ‘the spirit is felt’ cannot be replaced.

Let us seek this companion, who has promised to be our ‘constant companion’3 if we meet follow his rules for companionship.  Let us realize that the peace that he promises is far beyond ‘peace’ as we can define it or as it can be imagined by earthly minds.  It is ‘His peace that he gives us, not as the world gives’. That is real comfort and that is real joy.  Let us live ‘in a state consistent with the manner of happiness’

1 See Alma 41:11

2 There have been many people and sources for this phrase, but I choose to cite C. S. Lewis from the Chronicles of Narnia (The Horse and His Boy) – since he is my favorite.

3 See D&C 121 (the whole section)

4 See John 14:27

I Really Like M&Ms

A few years ago I had a problem, a serious problem.  I was addicted to peanut M&Ms. Now, before you discount this as a funny story or even a non-serious problem, I should impress upon your minds the seriousness of the matter.  This problem was in every sense of the word an addiction. It was unhealthy, unrelenting, and insatiable, and – as a hallmark feature of a true addiction – I was largely unaware of the magnitude of the problem while ensnared in its chains.

I had, have, and still do love peanut M&Ms more than any human should, and this particular problem started when I was visiting one of my brothers’ homes in Arizona.  He had a large jar of candy sitting on the counter and it just so happened that this large jar of candy was filled (literally filled, like a swimming pool of sugar and peanuts and chocolate) with peanut M&Ms.   While we were there visiting this candy jar was available for any and all to partake at their leisure.  No limits, no effort (except for lifting off the candy jar lid, which I soon just left sitting on the counter for ease in stuffing my face more quickly), no parental influence to tell me that was enough (after all, I was an adult right?), nothing but myself to govern my appetite for the delicious treat.  This trip (in which I ate the majority of his candy) was only the beginning of my problems.

Soon after this initial frenzy, and my true discovery of these M&Ms, I quickly transitioned from ‘wanting’ them to ‘needing’ them.  I needed them every day.  I needed them to be by my side to give me comfort when I was weak.  I needed them to speak peace to my heart when others were mean to me or didn’t understand me.  I needed them to assure me that everything was fine and I needed them to feel good (this is healthy right?) – and it just got worse from there.  Soon, not only did I ‘need’ peanut M&M’s, but I ‘needed’ them in a larger quantity and with less frequent breaks.  At first, a small (single serving) package would fill the void, which quickly transitioned to me ‘needing’ a ‘tear-n-share’ size bag.  This seemed a simple enough transition, after all, good + more good = more good.  Then, over time, my dependence upon M&M’s grew and I needed a ‘small bag’, then a ‘large bag’ (I completely skipped the ‘medium bag’ since it seemed appropriate).   This problem escalated into my ‘need’ for a family size Ziploc bag (you know, the kind you get at Walmart or Costco in the mega bulk section) which I would hoard for myself and devour in a weekend.  Read that again to understand where I was…I would consume an entire 45 oz. bag of peanut M&M’s in a weekend – by myself.

What happened next, was disturbing, but also very logical.  I began to store them.  I began to think to myself “what if I can’t go to the store and buy more?” or even worse, “what if I want some (need some) and don’t have any?”  That was unacceptable to me, so I ALWAYS had more than I needed just in case I wanted some.  In fact, I remember a time when I went to the store and bought 2 or 3 ‘tear-n-share’ size bags for a trip only to reason with myself that ‘I would probably need more’ so I went right back and bought twice that amount.  I am not proud of this.   When I was home, I hid them in various locations (in case someone found one stash – I would always have another).  I was totally prepared for any event, because I knew that I would be safe and that nothing was going to prevent me from enjoying M&Ms.

Now, the law of diminishing returns is in full force when you eat M&M’s.  But that doesn’t stop most people, and it certainly didn’t stop me from trying to plow through it chasing the delicious taste of the first few M&M’s (you know, the one’s I could taste before my body started begging me to stop).  I would make myself ill each time I would feast upon them.  Many times I would go to bed in an absolute state of sugar-coma vowing to not go quite that overboard next time – only to eat a bowl of M&M’s for breakfast the next day.  I had M&M’s in my baseball bag, my golf bag, my wallet, the pocket of every pair of pants I owned, my computer bag, my car, and probably my scripture bag.  There was no activity (including sporting events that I participated in) that was exempt from the tentacles of my disease (yes I did also buy them at the snack shack).  I made sure of that.  I even painted a pumpkin in the image of a yellow M&M for Halloween.

To be fair and honest (as you can imagine) I gained 40 pounds during these dark times.  40 pounds!  Imagine if you put 40 pounds of M&M’s on a scale, because that’s exactly what my hindquarters and midsection was comprised of (your welcome for that image in your minds) and it was not pretty by any stretch of the imagination.

Flash forward a few years to now – and I have shed this habit.  I still love M&M’s but I managed to free myself from their addictive powers, and since I can see a lesson to be learned from this experience, including turning weaknesses into strengths (See Ether 12:27) I’d like to relate it to a parable that we all know; a parable in which my M&M’s can (and hopefully will be) likened to ‘oil’.  This story is found in Matthew 25:

Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom.

And five of them were wise, and five were foolish.

They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them:

But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.

While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept.

And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him.

Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps.

And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out.

But the wise answered, saying, Not so; lest there be not enough for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves.

And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut.

Afterward came also the other virgins, saying, Lord, Lord, open to us.

But he answered and said, Verily I say unto you, I know you not.

Watch therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour wherein the Son of man cometh.

If we consider my love for, storage of, preoccupation with, and constant protection of M&Ms a ‘simile’ for what we should be doing with our ‘oil’ we can learn a valuable lesson.  Do I have sufficient storage of oil in my lamp?  Am I worried that if I take a trip I might run out?  Am I worried that my rate of oil consumption is more accelerated that my rate of oil storage?  Do I have enough oil stored up in case of emergency?  What about Saturday night when I know the store is closed on Sunday?  Have I prepared my oil stash to last the night or next day?  What about if we were bears and I had to survive a long harsh winter in a cave?  Have I stored enough oil for myself?  Have I helped my family store their oil?  Do I have various stashes in case one gets spoiled?  Am I confident that no matter what happens I can and will have access to this oil in time of need?

This gathering and hoarding of oil is a good thing – and the more weight we add the better.  Imagine the spiritual pounds we will add if we continually seek after, feast upon, and store this oil to the same degree that I did with M&Ms.  There is no law of diminishing returns with this oil – in fact it’s the opposite – the more we eat, the better it tastes, the more ravenous we become and the more spiritual pounds are added to our hindquarters and midsections.  Then, when the rubber meets the road and the bridegroom comes – we will have enough in our store to abide the day.  Those without stores of oil or ‘no meat on their bones’ will be left asking those who appear more plump to ‘give us of your oil, for our lamps have gone out’.  These spiritual pounds are not shareable, and they are only gained by repeated consumption of spiritual food and the only advice we can give at that point is to ‘go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves’ – or in other words – go get yourselves some M&Ms and start eating.

Are we Superman or Clark Kent?

When it comes to total abandonment of fashion sense Superman outdoes even my 3 year old. For decades this Symbol of power and justice has defied fashion logic entirely and chosen not only to wear tights, but also to reverse the traditional relationship between underwear and pants. Maybe he does it because he knows he’s that awesome. Maybe he’s actually super dyslexic and doesn’t realize he’s doing it. Maybe that’s the traditional way of dress on his native planet Krypton (although he was raised in Smallville Kansas) and maybe I’m showing how nerdy I am right now by starting my article out with Superman facts, but despite all his imperfections (or what I perceive to be imperfections) he was one of my heroes growing up. I pretended to be him on plenty of occasions. I had a makeshift cape, I fought imaginary bad guys and at one point I even tried to wear my underwear over my shorts. As a matter of fact, I was born in the front seat of a car as opposed to in a hospital bed. (not quite Krypton but the best I could do with two mortal parents).

There is something else unique about Superman. Most superheroes are regular people whose disguises transform them into their Superhero alto ego. Superman on the other hand IS his true identity. His disguise and alter ego is Clark Kent the mild mannered, clumsy, freelance employee at the Dailey planet. As we all know Superman blends in as Clark Kent until danger is amiss and then he retreats to a closet, phone booth, or somewhere discreet and busts out ready to deliver a beat down to the bad guys as the 6-packed, perfect haired Superman.

My point with this ramble is this. Everyone knows who Superman is. Everyone knows what his morals and standards are and where his heart lies. He immediately uplifts those around him and brings hope. They know he wants the best for them and wants everyone to be happy and safe. Being born in Kyrpton yet living on Earth Superman truly lives the saying “Be in the world, but not of the world”. Thinking about it, Superman is a pretty awesome guy. On the other hand… no one knows who Clark Kent really is or what he stands for. He blends in and gives no impressions on who he really is or what he stands for. No one knows what he believes or where his intentions are. However, Clark Kent’s standards are every bit as high as Supermans because of course they are one and the same person! So that then leads to the question which is the title of the article. Are we Superman or Clark Kent?

Like Superman do people know who we are and what we stand for? Do we personally by our words, our actions and our deeds show people, whether they know us or not see that we stand for truth, righteousness, love, hope, and peace? Do we aspire to inspire others to do good, to be good and to be the best person they can be? Do we attempt to follow one of my favorite sayings by Ghandi “Be the change you want in the world”? Are we a force for good? Can we be counted on by the Lord? Or, on the other hand are we like Clark Kent? Do we simply blend in? Do we keep ourselves and our stance quiet in this world which is in obvious and rapid decline!? Do we allow people to make their own assumptions on who or what we are? Do we give them reason to doubt what we stand for? Or do we, or will we now choose to make a stand?

The truth is, we are constantly showing who we are. So yes, I’m basically saying that in a way we’re all like Superman… which is awesome! Whether we know it or not, whether we are aware or not, whether we are even trying or not, we are constantly showing and proving who we are at all times to people around us. People across the office, at the post office, across the parking lot, at the stop light, in the next line over at the checkout line could be paying attention to you. How we treat others, our spouse, our children reveals our true character. That is something we cannot hide nor should we want or need to hide it! Are we being the best person we know how to be? Are we proud of our character? Are we letting it shine? Does our character speak for us when we cannot?

If we’re not, and even if we are our Heavenly Father can help us magnify who we are to an even higher degree. He can and will help us become the best person we can be. His gospel can change our lives and add happiness and joy, love and peace. It can provide comfort in times of turmoil and can help give us guidance and hope. The Gospel of Christ is something that I love. It is something that has helped me tremendously in life and I’m sure will continue to help me in the days and years to come. I hope that we can all become more like Christ and be proud to show our character as it aligns with the Character of the Master. He is here to help us, he always has been, and always will be.

Finding Your Voice

Its funny how discussions can pull memories and thoughts from the recesses of your brain.  A recent discussion on both the awesome feats of some seldom talked about prophets and the ability of speak with a voice of thunder has had me thinking of these scriptures for the last few days.

I frequently share these verses with new missionaries, especially those who are learning a new language.  They were introduced to me during my second week in the MTC as a gentle reminder of what can happen when we trust in our Heavenly Father and give our best.  We (my district of elders) were expressing frustration while learning Spansih and doubting that we would ever be really effective.  In response to our lack of faith, our instructor wrote these scriptures on the board for us to read and study.  We left that class with a newfound optimism and determination.

Soon my youngest sister will be tackling a very difficult language.  She will work hard, and she will excel.  For those days when things don’t come as easily as you’d like, remember you are not alone in struggling to find your voice – but also remember that you can and will.  You just have to get a little help.
Moses 6:27, 31, 34 >>> Moses 7:13

Competition

I am the 2nd of four brothers that all grew up together (4 brothers in a row) and I am not sure I can overstate the level of competitiveness that prevailed in our home.  There was nothing that we did that wasn’t a competition of some kind (even if we didn’t say it – we all knew it).  Normal activities that somehow resulted in a full scale competition could range from who could eat the most or the fastest, who could win while playing any type of game, who could sleep the most, who could play with their friends more often, who was better at Nintendo, who could make the other one angry, who could drive the car, who had the best hair, who sat on the comfy chair, who got the last drink of Kool-Aid, and the list goes on literally forever.

There is however, one area of competition that seemed to be exceedingly intense – sports.  Ever since we could walk – we were competing in sports.  We were each other’s first and sometimes only opponents and we couldn’t escape it since we all lived in the same house.  We grew to understand each other’s strengths and weaknesses and with a complete lack of mercy these weaknesses were heavily exploited to make the competition even worse (Colby forced me to drive left every time.  Every. Single. Time.  Or, he made me shoot a deep 3). It forced us to study, and to learn the ins and outs of everything in order to try new things, understand the rules, improve the fundamentals, and more importantly, to become better.  I can guarantee that there weren’t any other boys our age (besides those we played with) that knew all the rules, and who loved the competition as much as us.  We understood exactly who we were, what role we played on the team (and just as importantly if not more importantly we knew what role the others on our team should play), what we could become, and we loved the competition!  I remember crying only a few times during my childhood and every single time it is related to sports.  I even cried while I was on the pitchers mound once…. during a game.  I cried in right field once after striking out with the bases loaded because I knew I had let my team down…. I cried on the bench of a basketball game because I didn’t get to play very much, and I cried after the game lots of times (only when we lost).  I loved playing and competing it so much I can’t even describe it for you.  Hint: it’s a lot.

Sports were the only things we ever did.  Before school, during school, after school, during the summer, during the winter, it didn’t matter what the weather was like – we were playing something somewhere with someone.  Even when we weren’t home playing each other – we were likely off with others playing some kind of sport.  For those of us who were not the oldest, this meant that you sometimes got to play (or were forced to play) with kids twice your age and twice your size.  Be it remembered again that I don’t think anyone ever got a single ounce of mercy from anyone else, and if they would have asked for it – that would have been the beginning of the end for that person.

There were many times when Colby and his friends would compete against me and my friends, and the results were very similar to MetroMan vs. MegaMind: “he would win some, I would almost win others”.   There were also times when I would practice for hours and then when I felt I was ready, I would come and challenge him and he would somehow win by a point on a lucky shot or a phantom foul call.  With all this practice I improved a lot and let’s be honest – it made him better.  There is no way that he could absorb the relentless attack of a motivated little brother who has no other goal than to beat his older brother and therefore retain bragging rights forever without exerting unnatural force and most assuredly some divine help.

This constant competition likely drove our parents crazy.  In fact, I’m positive that neither one of my parents have ever said to any of us “thanks for being so competitive and ruthless while you were growing up – It was super fun to watch and it really helped make my life easy”.  But looking back at those great moments – this ruthless competition provided many opportunities for us to grow up.  I learned how to compete.  I learned how to give every single thing I had against people that were twice as old and twice as big with little hope for success but that wasn’t stopping me at all.  I learned to work, and I learned to want it. I learned what to look for in teammates and what to expect from a good opponent.  I learned to battle.

Being so close to Colby in age also gave me the opportunity once in a while to be on the same team (brothers were always on the same team in Jr. Jazz, little league, etc.) and we quickly realized that while we were on the same team that competitive spirit that we each had somehow multiplied exponentially when we harnessed it together against the other team.  What that meant for me is that we didn’t spend any time or energy fighting with each other, and we had plenty of energy together to compete together – against the other team.  This was awesome.  When we combined talents, understandings, intentions, strategies, and energy to become the best teammates that we could – the results were pretty amazing.  This coherence only happened during sports (I don’t remember being on the same page during our Saturday chores or really any other time).  Our teams were always good and they were even better when others who we had normally played with (friends) were also on our team and they harnessed their energy and competitive spirit.  On the other hand – it also helped me realize the differences between good teams and not so good teams.  It also helped me understand and realize that sometimes there are people on my team, that aren’t really dialed in, or that aren’t giving the same level of effort that I was, and that affected the whole team, and this fact helped me try to be an even better teammate.  We also had the opportunity to play for some awesome coaches.  Coaches that helped us learn, helped us grow, challenged us and helped us understand things.  We also had coaches who didn’t really want to be there and couldn’t wait until the season was over so that they didn’t have to practice or deal with us anymore.  We (even then) knew the difference and would choose wisely if given a choice.

This constant competition in all things sports (combined with our intimate knowledge of professional athletes) also allowed us to talk about sports when we couldn’t play them.  During school or church, or while walking to school or church, or while sitting in the car, or pretty much anytime when we couldn’t actually play sports – we talked about them, we dreamed about them, we envisioned ourselves being them, and we called ‘I’m Jordan’ or ‘I’m Maddux’ when we played and thought that we were just as good as they were.  I know that we are all guilty of developing our own ‘dream teams’ based on opinion, facts, knowledge, bias, uniform colors, success, statistics, and maybe even location and arguing with each other over whose imaginary team is or would be better.  Some of us maybe even still do this in our minds…. and some of us might even still write them down.  Hopefully we have all arrived at a point in our lives where we can assemble these dream teams based on various roles, talents, characteristic attributes, etc. in order to make a great team (talents working together) instead of just a bunch of really good players who would happen to wear the same uniform (i.e. having 4 centers and one power forward on your dream team).   The hardest part of this activity was trying to decide which of the all time greats would be your 5 starters (basketball) or 9 (baseball) given the whole history of sports.  Good luck with that.

This whole backstory is to make a point: we can and do make our own dream teams.  Or maybe a better way to put it is, we can and do decide which team we play on, who our teammates are, and who our coach is.  The best part is that there is no limit to the number of starters that you can choose because there isn’t a limited number of positions like in baseball or basketball – at least not in the traditional sense.  For example – in the limited scope (when we attend or watch a sporting event) there is a single game going on where 5 or 9 or 11, etc. players from each team play and the others are on the bench waiting their turn.  But what if there were 20 games going on at once (between the same 2 teams), and each side has to field a team for each court/field/etc.?  Now imagine there were 2,000 games going on at once, or even 2 million games and each side has fielded its team to each of those locations.  This is the ultimate game.  Each team is recruiting players, and each coach is delegating authority and preparing their teams for continued battle.  This is the game of good vs. evil.  It is real and it is going on even now.

The more we realize this, and the more we understand that it is absolutely a competition, and that it has been going on since the beginning of the beginning the more excited we become, and the more involved we become in the action all around us.  We get to analyze the strengths and weaknesses of each team, we get to see the players on both sides, dream about becoming like them, playing with them, and then (best news of all) we get to make a conscience choice to draft ourselves to whichever team we want to play for.  We also get to decide if we are a starter, a bench warmer, a utility player, a low post threat, a water boy, a pinch hitter, a closer, or maybe even a pinch runner.  We even get to try them (some voluntarily and some via ‘callings’) out until we learn and understand what we are really good at and how we can help the team more effectively. Some people are better suited to call the plays from the front office, some people are good at kicking field goals, and some people are good at running really fast.  Some people are good at shooting 3’s and some people are good at free throws.  Some people are good at defense and some are good at taping ankles.  Some people are good at shagging foul balls, and some people are good at throwing changups.  Some are good at laminating the coach’s card and others are good at holding the cord to the headset so that the coach can wander wherever he wants during the game.  The point is that there are a gazillion opportunities to help the team, and we need every single person that we can get.  This is why both sides are recruiting and constantly ‘enticing us to choose good or evil’.

When we (as players and competitors) decide to get on the same team, and to follow the same coach, and to give everything we have to help the team win, our competitive natures can exponentially increase the success of the team.   We get to practice while we play.  We get to improve by playing and playing and playing some more.  We get to enjoy the process, and we get to meet awesome people, and we get to feel that rush of being on the smallest but best team of all.   We get to focus our energy and our intensity with others who have the same drive, motivation, testimony, etc. in order to become the best teammates we can be, and to become the best team we can be.

We also get to compete against a team that on paper may seem to be much bigger, stronger, faster, more agile, more stacked, better coached, better prepared, has more experience, has flashier uniforms, a larger crowd or booster club, a better travel bus, and definitely more team members.  In fact, their team name is called ‘The World’.  Their warm up routine is a really great show.  It strikes fear into the hearts of many.  When they’re done with their warmup and all during the game, they are excellent trash talkers and they try to get in your head by saying whatever they think will affect us and IT’S ALL A SHOW to be ‘seen of men’ or ‘to have glory of men’ because ‘they think that they will be heard for their much speaking’.

The strength of ‘the world’ is in it’s show.  They are also very good at isolation defense.  They full court press and trap like crazy while on defense to make the offense feel ‘isolated’ and ‘apart from’ their team.  They try to make each person on the other team feel like they are alone, or that there is no hope of help.  This is their best strength – let us be aware of it as a tactic of battle – because only then are we able to properly see it for what it is – their weakness.  Their supposed strength (the show) is a complete weakness because it has no substance.  We can break that full court press by attacking it, and once we’ve attacked their trap, we will be able to see through their defense and reach our goals.  Do not confuse this breakthrough with complete victory, because ‘the world’ will fight and claw and cheat and steal and do whatever they can to disrupt us, make us panic, take us off course, confuse us, distract us, and they are coached and prodded by a relentless motivation of pure hatred which when backed against the wall will become ‘yet more angry’ and they will fight ‘like dragons’ and become ‘exceedingly wroth’.  This will require poise (especially under pressure), power, and focus to overcome.  It will require faith, and it will require confidence.

When it really comes down to it (the end)– they (the world) are the ones who are ‘exceedingly afraid’.  They are the ones who are ‘astonished’ and who ‘tremble’ and who are ‘filled with terror’ and wish that ‘rocks would fall’ upon them or that they could somehow ‘cease to exist’.  They are the ones that have ‘imagined up unto themselves’ glory or success or who ‘boast in their own strength’.  They are the ones that are ‘racked with eternal guilt’ and live in a ‘state of misery’, which hath no end.  They are the ones led by a coach of who abandons them when he promised he’d be there for them and when they think they need him most.  A coach who binds them down with chains to rule over them and ultimately rejoices in their misery and captivity.  Like most battles where a heavily favored opponent (the world) is defeated by ‘small, simple, and weak things’ – ‘how great and marvelous will be their fall’.

Do you want to be on that team? I don’t.

Let us not forget what we have on our side.  We have a power that they will never understand.  We have a coach that understands each one of us, our strengths, our talents, and he knows exactly where to put us to do the most good.  His only desire is to help us win because of what it does for us, not because of what it does for Him!  We have teammates who are willing to give everything they have.  We have the playbook.  We have the commentary on past history.  We have the game film from the game we are playing.  We know what happens, we know who wins.  We are the ones who have a coach that laid down his own life so that we could choose and become something more. We have a team that can do ‘all manner of miracles’ and have a ‘fulness of joy’.  We have team that has ‘seen and heard unspeakable things’ and have promised the same for others.  We have a team that can ‘smite the earth with the word of God’.   We have teammates that are ‘holy, and that the powers of the earth cannot hold them’.   We have a team that will ‘sing together, for we shall see eye to eye’.  We have a team that is ‘filled with the Holy Ghost’.  We have a team that is ‘encircled about with fire; and the angels do minister unto us’.  We have a team that ‘knows and do bear record of Jesus Christ’ and ‘have a knowledge of our redeemer’.    We have a team that can minister ‘with power and great authority’.  We have a team that can speak with such power that ‘it is not possible that they can disbelieve our words’.  We have a team that has ‘great joy, and is exceedingly glad, for great shall be our reward in heaven’.    We are members of a team that has ‘been chosen from out of the world’, and can ‘see with our eyes and feel with our hands, and do know of a surety’.  We have a team where the very ‘power of heaven shall come down among us’, and Jesus Christ himself ‘will be in our midst’.   We have a team that works together and helps each other out.  We have a team that is ‘scorned, and shamed, and spit upon’, but we have a team that will overcome through ‘power, through love, and a sound mind’.

Our uniforms, shoes, sponsorships, and bus may not be flashy, our team may not talk trash (Elijah can handle that for us), we may not act the part of what ‘the world’ thinks a team should be, but we are in fact the greatest team ever assembled, and I for one am going to give everything I have to this team, because I love this team and all those who play for it, I love our coach, and I love to compete against the world because I know ‘of a surety’ and have a knowledge of my redeemer and His great love and plan and it makes ‘my heart burn within me’.

The strength of our team is our power through unity and the light and love of Jesus Christ.  The power that comes through Him and His atonement.  The power that comes to each team member through faith, love, devotion, practice, and service.  This power is viewed as a weakness by the world because they can’t see it.  They don’t believe it’s real because they can’t see it.  They think they can defeat us because all they see are the weak and simple things of the earth going about believing ‘foolish traditions’ and ‘binding themselves with a yoke of bondage’ and weakness ‘as to the strength of men’.  What they don’t see are the legions of angels surrounding us at all times who are ready and willing to fight for and with us.  They don’t see the amazing and consuming power of the priesthood to ‘bind on earth and on heaven’.  They don’t see that all it takes is for us (members of the opposite team) to combine forces, motivations, and share that love and light to drive away their hate and darkness.  Don’t let this strength be our weakness, don’t let their traps and full court presses confuse us or fog up our minds or eyes – let us join with the angels, and ‘let our hearts be turned to our fathers’ so that we can call upon them during times of struggle and strife.  They are already here – we just might not ‘see’ them.  Let us feel them, and become more aware of them, and then have the faith necessary so that they ‘cannot be withheld from our sight’, or that we ‘cannot be kept without the veil’.  Then can our power grow, then can our ‘weak things become strong’.  Then we can show forth and share His power to destroy our foes.

Come join with us.  Take upon you His name – even Jesus Christ.  For “who can stand against the works of the Lord?  Who can deny his sayings?  Who will rise up against the almighty power of the Lord?… Who will despise the Children of Christ?…Behold, ye shall wonder and perish” (Morm. 9:26).  They shall be ‘as stubble fully dry’ and destroyed ‘to the uttermost’, for ‘the mountains quake at him, and the hills melt, and the earth is burned at his presence, yea, the world, and all that dwell therein’.

Christ the royal Master, leads against the foe

Forward into battle, see his banner go

Hell’s foundations quiver, at the shout of praise

Brothers, lift your voices, loud your anthems raise

Like a mighty army, moves the Church of God

Brothers we are treading, where the saints have trod

We are not divided, all one body we:

One in hope and doctrine, one in charity

Onward then, ye people, join our happy throng

Blend with ours your voices, in the triumph song

Glory, laud, and honor, unto Christ the King

This through countless ages, men and angels sing

(Hymn 246)

Don’t Win by Forfeit

A friendly Giardia bug

A long time ago, back when mullets were still cool, cell phones didn’t exist, and Bart Simpson was just getting started on his long and illustrious career, I had little league baseball practices with Tyson. We had them at Wilson school. At this time, we didn’t live so close as to be able to walk home, so we had to wait after practice was over for your mom to come pick us up. Sometimes, I’m sure, she was on time with this task. Other times, however, we were left on our own. Im sure she was just a little late, but to us it seemed like we would need to make camp, hunker down, and wait for daylight for rescue.  As is understandable, after a long practice of being totally awesome, putting on these clinics of baseball prowess, and baffling coaches with our unbelievable skill and abilities, we were thirsty. Apparently, we didn’t have the modern technology of today called water bottles back then, so we were left to improvise.  Without the adult supervision that may have dissuaded us in our next move, we used our excellent judgement and problem solving skills and routinely quenched our thirst with the ever so convenient irrigation ditch water that ran just outside the fence of our baseball practice field. Im sure this water had absolutely no contaminants, fowl excrement, dog and cat urine, mouse feces, or any such unpleasant thing as it’s appearance was totally clear. Im sure we had been warned against such a thing, but when your mouth feels like the mojave desert in the summertime of a multi-year drought, you do what you gotta do.

In the years since then, I have come to realize that what we were really doing those days when we partook of that cool, clean water was essentially immunizing ourselves from varying forms of water borne illnesses. Instead of just drinking ultra filtered, sterilized, treated boring water, we were preparing our intestinal tracts for future missions to Brazil. The sublethal doses of Giardia, ecoli, cholera, ebola, or whatever other microbial disaster was in that water was just preparing our bowels against future onslaughts of nastiness. We didn’t know it at the time, but we were conducting our own organic health clinic immunization program as we dipped our heads and faces in the water like parched dying animals.

So what does this awesome story of our bravery and survival have anything to do with anything? Its all about patterns. Thats the way things work in our lives. There are truths that span different aspects of everyday life. Tyson and I immunized ourselves against future disease by drinking that nasty ditch water.  By exposing ourselves to it, our bodies developed antibodies to whatever small amount of nastiness was in that water at that time. Our bodies then destroyed those intruders, and from the corpses of the invading germ armies, memorized their makeup, put out wanted posters, and FBI mugshots all over in our bodies to warn our insides about a future attack. Our bodies were then prepared with ammunition and specific customized armor to defend against that particular invading bug. Any subsequent attack would be thwarted instantaneously.

This true principle can be applied in all sorts of ways in our life. One has to do with how we prepare ourselves, or our kids, to go out in the disease ridden world. Do we send them out in the world after having lived in a protective sphere of purified air, water, and food, and living in a padded room in the basement with sunblock, a football helmet, and mosquito spray all over them? If we did, what would happen the first time they tasted a quarter pounder or sugar wafers? They would go crazy and devour every last one they could get their hands on. Do we send them out never having let them climb on a chair when they are 2 years old, fall out of a tree, never let them fall down the stairs, fall off a bike, or  scrape their knees, or get in a fight? As moms and dads, I think our first instinct is to protect our kids, and ourselves for that matter, from everything that can potentially hurt us, or them.  But are we really helping? Are we really helping by trying to shelter ourselves and our kids from the realities of the world?  Wouldn’t it be better to teach them to overcome these diseases by choice, so that they can live in the world and not of it? To let them drink out of the ditch so to speak?  We can’t protect ourselves from exposure to all the nasty things in the world, but we can immunize ourselves, and prepare ourselves to overcome, defeat, and withstand the fiery darts that are headed our way.  But, it requires us to allow that to happen.

What would happen if Tyson and I had asked our mom if we could drink from the ditch? What would the answer have been? Absolutely not! are you crazy? But, would Tyson and I have guts of steel resistant to all the horrible disfiguring diseases known to man if we had not? Did we, in some seemingly small way benefit from drinking a small amount of cow manure? I say yes, yes we did.

We have to be able to live full rewarding lives in the world we live in. Those are the cards we’ve been dealt. That world has some nasty garbage all over in it. But, its the world we live in. We can be strong, and honorable, and do the right thing, all while living in a wicked world. Remember, the iron rod was right in the middle of the mist of darkness, not around the periphery shielded from everything nasty. We cant shield ourselves from, hide from, and wish away all the bad things we will face. We have to trust ourselves, and our kids for that matter, to make the right choices. And sometimes, the choices will be to drink from a ditch. But, its not the end of the world. Real meaningful growth and progression doesn’t come living in a padded room with a helmet on. It comes from tripping, falling, getting dirty, and dusting yourself off, and moving in the right direction.

So, my advise to myself is, to teach myself, and my kids as best I can, and let them learn from their mistakes, just like I did. They need to learn to dust themselves off after they get dirty so to speak. to become clean after they get messy. Even though every last instinct is to do the opposite and try and protect them or us from everything that is coming our way.  We cant protectively squeeze ourselves or our kids so tight, that they suffocate for lack of air. We can do more damage than good. Sometimes we have to learn by trial and error for ourselves for it to actually mean anything.

Remember that war in Heaven thing when two plans were presented? The first would guarantee success, 100% retention, all God’s kids safely back home, no strays, no errors, no mistakes, nothing but pure obedience. The second plan, the dangerous plan, the plan that would cause pain, anguish, loss, betrayal, and every other fear of a parent. The second was the plan that was chosen. Because that plan included freedom and choice. Winning the game against a great formidable opponent means so much more than winning by forfeit. Its like beating Michael Jordan in a game of one-on-one vs beating a guy with no arms or legs in a boxing match. Its better to prepare for the realities of life, and overcome them than to fear them, ignore them, and wish they weren’t there. All life’s obstacles are there to struggle over, not sneak around. In the end, we need to be immune to the nastiness of the world, not just simply “lucky” never to have contracted any life-threatening diseases by hiding in the basement.

The Greatest Prophet….you’ve never heard of.

Elijah

I love Spy Books. Jason Bourne, James Bond, and my latest favorite Mitch Rapp. All of these guys are cool under pressure, underestimated, under appreciated, smarter, and more tuned into the small details around them that tip them off to the bad guys’ plan. Its always a continuous nail biting experience until, in the end, they narrowly escape almost certain death, and snatch victory from the jaws of defeat. The story never gets old. The hero always wins. These unbelievably amazing stories are, of course, pure fiction.

However, many stories of actual heroes who have lived and battled actual evil are scattered throughout history. You could look at George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, Paul Revere and many others. All of these real heroes did a lot of good for a lot of people. But, even these great guys are actually small characters in the spy book of the history of the world.

If we look at our life and purpose here on earth from God’s perspective, things tend to look quite a bit different. Things we thought really mattered, don’t. Each small covert act we carry out can alter a person’s life for the better, and can have overwhelming potential impact on that person’s future, and potentially their entire posterity’s future. The heroes that have truly effected the most people in history from this perspective, are the prophets. God’s prophets throughout the ages now seem to be the Jason Bournes of the spy book of real life.

Many of the prophets from history are still famous. Adam, Moses, Isaiah, Peter, Lehi, Nephi,Mormon, and Alma. All these guys are well known, and their works are well known. Their impact on the meaningful history of the world is common knowledge. But, just like my favorite characters in my spy books, I like the guys that fly under the radar.

One of the greatest prophets that has ever lived, is, in my opinion, one of the least known, or truly appreciated.  His impact on all of us is expertly embedded in the very fabric of the gospel. Not only was he crucial to the survival of God’s true religion against the idolatry of the prophets of Baal in the old testament times. He totally beat them down in a little 450-on-one call-fire-down-from-heaven my-God-is-better-than-yours challenge. He also played, quite possibly, the most vital role in the restoration of the gospel when he appeared to the prophet Joseph Smith. So who is this guy? The one and only Elijah.

Think about some of the most famous stories of the Bible.  You may think of Moses’ parting of the Red Sea and the children of Israel crossing on dry land. Did you also know about Elijah parting the river Jordan and crossing it on dry ground (2 kings 2:8)? We know about Jesus feeding the 5,000 with just a few loaves of bread and a couple of fish? What about Elijah blessing the widows last handful of meal and oil, and then that last meal lasting and sustaining her and her family throughout the famine (1 Kings 17:8-16).  Jesus raising Lazerus from the dead? Elijah raised that same widows son from the dead (1 Kings 17:17-24) We know Jesus fasted for 40 days in the desert. That had to be a record right? Well, it was tied by Elijah. He also fasted for 40 days (1 Kings 19:8). It is no wonder that Jews, to this day, open their doors for him and await his return.

So, what makes Elijah so great and important? All we really talk about is the “spirit of Elijah” in the annual lesson on family history in Elders quorum when 90% of us are asleep and the other half are figuring out how to check on their fantasy football scores without seeming too obvious.  The Spirit of Elijah is more than just a reminder to do family history though. Its the reason behind it. The word “spirit” could probably be changed out for a different word.  Its more like the “power” of Elijah, or the sealing power that he restored to the Earth. Elijah was one of the very few to ever have been entrusted with the sealing power. It was the power to seal or bind on earth and in heaven. That is pretty huge. What you seal on earth, is honored in heaven. Heaven is bound. That is rare. Power over the elements is included. You want it to rain? You got it. Drought? No sweat. Move a mountain? Just say the word. Nephi received this same power in the book of Helaman, and used it to “convey” out of the midst of his enemies. In today’s jargon, he totally disappeared, vanished into thin air.

Sealing power is the authority to bind families together. This is the essence of the Gospel. To bring everyone possible to join the family, and seal them together. When we think of binding families together, our natural tendency is to think of our own immediate family, our wives and kids. But it is beyond just that. We all are sons and daughters, as well as Fathers and Mothers, and Grandparents and so forth. So, “family” has to be extended to mean God’s family. All of us. The only way this is even possible is with Elijah’s “power” or his “spirit” that is mentioned originally in Malachi, and later repeated in a more pure form to Joseph Smith by Moroni. He said, “Behold, I will reveal unto you the Priesthood, by the hand of Elijah the prophet…..And he shall plant in he hearts of the children the promises made to the fathers, and the hearts of the children shall turn to the fathers.” The priesthood he restored to Joseph Smith, is the sealing, binding, authority to make a family forever, and become a permanent member of the family of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. God’s family. “If it were not so, the whole earth would be utterly wasted at his coming.” It would be wasted because we would not have had temple ordinances sealing ourselves together, and thereby connecting us with our fathers, and God’s family. God can only save His family. His family that is bound to Him through baptism, and temple ordinances. Our big brother paid for our sins, so that we all could be a family once again.

So, when Elijah came to Joseph about a week after the Kirtland temple was dedicated. It was kind of a big deal. Elijah is kind of a big deal.  And absolutely crucial in restoring the power to seal. Its just the kind of story I love. The amazing under the radar guy, seemingly single handedly saves the day, and barely gets a mention in the footnotes of history, and it will be totally awesome to meet Elijah someday and hear him tell us first hand about his royal beatdown of the 450 prophets of Baal. I think he may have also been the first prophet to officially talk some smack after that whole thing went down…some guys just have it all.

Flexing and Admiring our Spiritual Muscles

I think it’s safe to say that at one point or another every man in existence since the invention of the mirror has spent plenty of time in front of it, flexing and admiring his physical muscles. Admiring how “manly” he looks…. Maybe even admiring how much chest or armpit hair he has while thinking to himself “created in God’s own image indeed”. (or maybe that was just me) I’d be lying if I said I never did that through my teenage years… or maybe even a little since then.

Building physical muscle takes dedication, time, effort, pain, and maybe a little help from Richard Simmons. You don’t, cant, and won’t get stronger without going through that process. No pain, no gain right? The harder you work, and more you sacrifice, the better the payoff. In working out there are tools that can help us. Weights of course provide the resistance needed to break our muscles down. The water, Gatorade, or nutrient drinks provide the replenishment our bodies require to rebuild stronger muscles. The neon leggings provide…. well they don’t really provide anything and pretty much just make us look weirdoes. One thing for sure though is that when it comes to working out, the hardest part is always getting started. However, once the ball gets rolling and we’re in the habit it becomes easier and yes, dare I say the word “enjoyable”! However, the second we stop working out, and putting in the work, our body begins to manifest the signs of it also. Muscles become less defined. Our endurance and confidence in our physical strength begins to decrease. My point with all this is to see and receive the reward or physical strength, it takes constant and consistent effort on our part… my other point is that neon leggings aren’t awesome anymore…. If they ever were in the first place.

Let’s put a twist on this now. How many of us (both men and women) have stepped back in front of the same mirror to flex and admire our Spiritual muscles? I’m guessing not as many of us. The ironic thing is it’s our spiritual strength more than physical strength that will enlighten our lives and the lives of others. It’s our spiritual strength that we will carry throughout eternity and bring us the blessings that give us the greatest joy. It’s our spiritual strength that truly matters both now and in the future to our father in heaven. In short, it doesn’t matter how much you can bench press, how much you can curl or how many miles you can run… if you are spiritually weak you are missing out on a whole new world of opportunities and blessings that will enrich your lives and the lives of others and likely even effect generations of people!  So how do we get our “spiritual workout” on?

Much like building physical muscle, building spiritual muscle takes dedication, time, effort and pain also. The pain needed to build spiritual strength however is often in the form of trails, struggles, disappointments or heartaches. It takes that pain to build us, teach us, and forge us into the men, women, husbands, fathers, wives, sons, and daughters that we are capable of being and that our Father in Heaven would like us to be. We don’t, cant, and won’t become spiritually stronger without that process either! Again, no pain no gain! It’s surprising how similar building the two types of strength really are! Just like the tools in the form of weights, electrolytes, nutrients and questionably the neon leggings used to help us build our physical strength there are tools to build our spiritual strength also. The Book of Mormon, bearing our testimony, Prayer, fasting and service to others are all tools that can help. Best of all, for building our Spiritual strength we don’t need help from Richard Simmons… we receive help from Jesus Christ!

The similarities don’t stop there though. Just like the regimen required to maintain and increase physical strength, we also require a regimen to maintain and increase our spiritual strength. The second we stop working out spiritually and putting in the work, our spiritual strength begins to manifest the signs also. Our relationship with the Lord weakens, it becomes harder to feel the spirit and feel promptings. Our desire to offer sincere prayer decreases as does our desire to do right and help other do the same. It takes constant and consistent effort to maintain peak spiritual shape also.

So, if we want to admire how awesome our “Spiritual 6 pack” is, or how “ripped our spiritual guns are” or how much we can “spiritually bench press” we’re going to need to know how to work up a spiritual sweat. (Is that even a term?) How do we build our Spiritual strength? Although replacing iron weights with stacks of Books of Mormons would physically weight about the same, that’s not the idea we’re going for. It’s simple. The primary answers. Read the scriptures, attend Church, and the Temple if worthy (and if you’re not worthy work to become worthy). Provide service to those in need, look to share your time and talents with others. Bear your testimony when given the opportunity. Lift and inspire others, be a good example, be honest, pray, have faith, and be happy! There are lots of ways that we can build our spiritual strength and they don’t even require a gym membership. I can also attest that the hardest part of working out spiritually is getting started. Getting in the habit of daily scripture study, service, the sharing of energies, times or talents is harder at first, but I can promise you the blessings will soon follow! You will realize a change within yourself and look forward the work it takes as you will notice an increase in strength or confidence or relationship with the Lord. It will make burdens and struggles appear in a different light as you will understand they are there to learn from! It will be become more than enjoyable. It will go beyond a desire also, and transform into a necessity!  So, this is your “spiritual pep talk” to get off the couch and hit the “spiritual gym”, to get your “spiritual workout on”, and pump those “spiritual irons” so you can appreciate your “spiritual guns” your Father In Heaven is waiting to bless you with!

A Few Thoughts

Often times, we beat ourselves up thinking that we aren’t quite good enough to start on the path back to church, or to follow Jesus Christ and do what He has asked us to do, and that if we just work on ourselves for a little while maybe we can get to a place where we will feel comfortable moving forward – but until then we say to ourselves – “I’m not quite sure that He (Jesus) is ready for me in my current state, He’s just still too disappointed in me” or “I’ve just made way too many mistakes, there is no way I could really be forgiven”.   These thoughts could not be further from the truth.  This is exactly what our common enemy wants us to think and feel.  He would like us to think that we need to work it out on our own and improve before we can feel comfortable at church or partake of his blessings.  This is untruth.  With this in mind, I’d like to share a few quotes:

“The message is not just ‘come unto me’, but ‘come as you are’.  He doesn’t say ‘go get your act together and then come back when you fit the mold’.  He says ‘let’s start right where you are and go from there’”.

-Brad Wilcox

“He’s not embarrassed by us, angry at us, or shocked.  He wants us in our brokenness, in our unhappiness, in our guilt and our grief”.

-Chieko N. Okazaki

“Because of him (Christ), we can rise above past problems, blot them out, and watch them die, if we are willing to have it so….The chance to change our past is at the heart of Christ’s greatest gift to us all”.

-Jeffrey R Holland

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you…and ye shall find rest unto your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matt. 11: 28-30

Let us not struggle against the only one that can heal us and make us better.  Let us not resist the helping hand that is offered, because it is actually when we think we deserve it least that we likely need it most, and His hand is mighty and powerful and can heal us every one.

Jesus Feeds the 5,000

In Galilee up on the mountain

The people followed Jesus there

As night grew near and even came

A meal for them was due

He knew at once the course to take

Yet for a test He questioned one

Where shall we buy bread that these may eat?

My lesson is not quite through

The answer came with hesitation

There is no bread that we can buy

To meet the needs of such a crowd

Before the setting sun

Another said there is a lad

With five loaves and two small fishes

Yet what are they among so many?

There is nothing to be done

Jesus took the loaves and gave His thanks

As He had done before

Then told His friends to share the bread

With all those who had stayed

Somehow, someway the meager meal

Became a mighty feast

For at the end when they were filled

Twelve baskets still remained

To all who witnessed this great scene

Remembrance seemed to kindle

This happened once before they said

To our fathers long ago

Moses and the manna from heaven

Could this mean our wait is over?

We have been looking for thousands of years

For the promised Messiah to show

He’ll come to deliver from bondage and burden

From chains He will set us free

Defeat all our foes, bring back our kingdom

Sustain us with manna once more

Glory, peace, and prosperity bring

We’ll rest from our labors and pains

At last it is here, our deliverance and bliss

Our long day of rest is in store

They sought to take and crown Him their king

By force to make Him their king

Force Him to fight for them and their rights

Force Him to give them more bread

Jesus knew at once the thought that began

They wanted bread just not the right kind

They wanted meat and bread of the world

Not bread of His flesh – offered instead

To them the deliverer promised the world

Endless feasts and bread with no labor

Political freedom, life in the palace

No rulers, and never a care

Jesus knew that the king they wanted to serve

He could not, and never would be

There are two kinds of bread you must understand

One common and one much more rare

Your fathers indeed had manna to spare

Yet mine is the true bread of God

It giveth life and light to the world

I AM THAT BREAD your true hunger to fill

The bread of my Father to all of the world

In order to rise up again

This is His will, His plan and my purpose

Hear me clearly now all those who will

Their excitement and clamor, their force and their zeal

At once declined to a murmur

How is it so that you are this bread

We know that it cannot be so

Ye are a son of Joseph and Mary

Your father and mother we know

Their hopes were all dashed, expectations removed

From the kingdom that they hoped to know

Jesus continued to drive the point home

Eat my flesh and drink of my blood

My flesh is meat, and my blood is drink,

Dwell in me and ye shall eat bread

The bread that I offer is made of my flesh

My words they are spirit, my words they are life

Their murmurs grew loud – understanding His meaning

They realized now what He said

An hard saying indeed, this to them seemed to be

They asked who can hear it, itis not for us

Their hope of deliverance from toil and from pain

Vanished again – as quick as it came

We want a king who provides for us bread

But not this live bread of which you proclaim

We want the bread that you brought down from heaven

Real bread like our fathers – that is our aim

We want the pleasure of meals without price

Food of a plenty – we’ve seen you provide

Don’t make us labor for things we can’t see

We want the real bread – the kind you just made

Saddened and pained, the savior then asked

Doth this offend you, these plain words I say

The truthful Messiah that you claim to know

Is here now before you, precious few are my days

There were many indeed – including disciples

Discouraged that Jesus had drawn clear the line

Between those who sought him learn and to follow

And those who would use him to gain their own way

Those who were troubled, followed no more

Thinking his sayings too stringent to stay

Jesus asked those around him, the ones to him near

You that remain – Will ye also go away?

Then Peter, great Peter said with force and with zeal

To whom will we go Lord? We know whom thou art

We know of thy truth and have felt in our hearts

We believe and are sure – Thy bread it is good.

Indeed He had planned this decisive encounter

To identify those with intentions so pure

From those who sought him, their own wills to serve

His faithful and chosen ones in His presence now stood

Let us be like them, His followers true

Seeking and eating His flesh and His blood

To believe and be sure, that is our start

Feasting indeed on the true words of life

To stand in the presence of Jesus the Christ

To hear with our ears and see with our eyes

To feel with our hands, to know in our hearts

For us to know Him – this is the prize